Lyrics for our original songs
I'M LETTING GO
Couldn’t sleep, caught me thinking of you again
What it's like when you lose a friend, you thought would always be there
Lost my way, trying to find what we left behind
Trying to find me some peace of mind, since the day you disappeared
You were a part of my heart, I held on tight, I’m not holding on anymore
Growing brighter each day, finding my way with love and laughter
The Sun's starting to show, it's time to grow, letting go, I’m letting go
Fooled myself, pretended that we weren’t thru
Never wanted to face the truth, told myself so many lies
I hung on, stuck around you for far too long
Watched your back as you shut the door, while I just shut my eyes
You were a part of my heart, I held on tight, I’m not holding on anymore
Growing brighter each day, finding my way with love and laughter
The Sun's starting to show, it's time to grow, I’m letting go, yes, I’m letting go
I remember the laughter, all the times we spent together
I'm tired of fighting, for what we once knew
You were a part of my heart, I held on tight, I’m not holding on anymore
Growing brighter each day, finding my way with love and laughter
The Sun's starting to show, it's time to grow
I’m letting go (with love and laughter, whoa...)
I’m letting, I'm letting, I’m letting go
Letting go
With love and laughter, I’m letting go
THROUGH IT
The only way through it, is through it.
The only way through it, is through it.
The only way through it, and you know you can do it,
The only way through it, is through it.
There’s been times in my life, I was lost
There’s been times in my life, I was found
There’s been times in my life, I didn’t know how
To make another sound
Sometimes it feels like, moving backwards
Sometimes it feels like, you will drown
When will I learn to swim these waters
These waves are crashing all around
The only way through it, is through it.
The only way through it, is through it.
The only way through it, and you know you can do it,
The only way through it, is through it.
When I was looking for, a shoulder to cry on
When I was looking for a friend, to be there
When I was needing someone else to rely on
Finding there was nobody near
Sometimes it feels like, moving backwards
Sometimes it feels like, you will drown
When will I learn to swim these waters
These waves are crashing all around
The only way through it, is through it.
The only way through it, is through it.
The only way through it, and you know you can do it,
The only way through it, is through it.
The only way through it, is through it.
The only way through it, is through it.
The only way through it, and you know you can do it,
The only way through it, is through it.
The only way through it, is through it.
The only way through it, is through it.
VOICES IN THE DARK
These voices in the dark, say I’m not worthy or deserving
These voices in the dark, taunt me with their hurtful ways
These voices in the dark, repeating what I fear most
These voices in the dark, say I will never be the one
When the lights go out, I hear you
When the lights go out the comparisons start
My mind gets filled with thoughts I can’t control
As the outside world recedes
Now I’ve made my list and I’ve checked it twice
I’ve counted every last breath I’ve taken
Did I do this wrong, did I get that right
Will I find the strength I’m needing
These voices in the dark, say I’m not worthy or deserving
These voices in the dark, taunt me with their hurtful ways
These voices in the dark, repeating what I fear most
These voices in the dark, say I will never be the one
The wickedness I’ve witnessed
Finds it’s target like a dart
The words become my own now
As they pierce my broken heart
As they pierce my broken heart
These voices in the dark, say I’m not worthy or deserving
These voices in the dark, taunt me with their hurtful ways
These voices in the dark, repeating what I fear most
These voices in the dark, say I will never be the one
These voices in the dark, say I’m not worthy or deserving
These voices in the dark, taunt me with their hurtful ways
These voices in the dark, repeating what I fear most
These voices in the dark, say I will never, never
Never be the one
Never be the one
Never be the one
REFLECTIONS
The phone call came this morning
Now I climb the attic stairs
In search of old reminders
In search of souvenirs
I wonder what is left there of
Seasons long departed
Stashed away until this moment
When my heart was left unguarded
My heart was left unguarded
Reflections of who you were
Of who you dreamt to be
Reflections in my heart
Flowing back as memories
Reflections when I look back
At the life that we once knew
Reflections never showing
What was true
My knees could not support me
When she told me of the news
The struggles you were hiding
She said that no one knew
Now I find myself once more
With those letters in my hand
As the tears flow down my face
As I try to understand
Reflections of who you were
Of who you dreamt to be
Reflections in my heart
Flowing back as memories
Reflections when I look back
At the life that we once knew
Reflections never showing
What was true
Keepsakes I collected
(There's no easy way to tell you)
Stories from our youth
(what he did to end his pain)
Faded, torn and tattered
Leave me drowning in thoughts of you
Reflections of who you were
Of who you dreamt to be
Reflections in my heart
Flowing back as memories
Reflections when I look back
At the life that we once knew
Reflections never showing
What was true
Reflections never showing
What was true
A CRACK IN THE WALL
I can see, the crack beginning
Though I never said the words
Two hearts that were connected
Now the seams are getting blurred
I wonder if you see it
Though I’m guessing that you can’t
Now the picture's losing focus
And you'll never get the chance
How, could I ever, find a man like you
Why, would I want to, start with someone new
Loving you, hurt me, tore me into little pieces
Why do I stay here, I can not recall the reasons
Anymore, Anymore
We talked and talked for hours
Never getting anywhere
Realizing what the truth was
Love we never could repair
How, could I ever, find a man like you
Why, would I want to, start with someone new
Loving you, hurt me, tore me into little pieces
Why do I stay here, I can not recall the reasons
Anymore, Anymore
We danced around the wreckage
As we spun out of control
Round this wall that held us both in
And the fault began to grow
How, could I ever, find a man like you
Why, would I want to, start with someone new
Loving you, hurt me, tore me into little pieces
Why do I stay here, I can not recall the reasons
Anymore, Anymore
Anymore, Anymore
I can see the crack beginning
Though I never said the words
A CHRISTMAS MOON
Three thousand miles away
Yet I felt it every day
Your breath flowed out my body
Your heart beat through my veins
And your presence, overwhelmed me
So many days we walked together
So many nights we had to hide
Those memories flowed through me
As I slowly walked outside
And your presence, overwhelmed me, once again
That Christmas moon burned strong
As the stars they danced along
The darkness held me close just like a lover
Submerged in time and drowning
I thought of you that night
So very far away,
Yet burning in that same moonlight
And your presence, overwhelmed me
All those letters that were written
Are they stashed inside some drawer
A mirror of two lovers
Forever wanting more
And your presence, overwhelmed me, once again
That Christmas moon burned strong
As the stars they danced along
The darkness held me close just like a lover
Why do I long for what was never mine
Why do I yearn to feel your body
Why do I ache for a love I’ll never own
I don't know how to stop me
(I don’t know how to stop me)
No I don’t know how to stop me
(I don’t know how to stop me)
And that Christmas moon burned strong
As the stars they danced along
The darkness held me close just like a lover
Just like a lover
Just like a lover
And the darkness held me close just like a lover
BECOMING A FAMILY
Sitting here and thinking ‘bout, these years we’ve spent together
What a blessing you have brought into my life
I thought I’d nearly lost you, watched you slowly fall to pieces
Til with time and work your laughter came alive
But it wasn’t only your life, that you changed as time went by
I’ve been standing right beside you everyday
We have worked so hard, We have learned so much
How to talk, How to trust, You and me
Starting our life together, Becoming a family
Opening our hearts, was just the start of what we needed
As we slowly figured out just what to say
I’ve watched your world expanding, Seen the sorrow disappearing
As our home filled up with laughter and love
But it wasn’t only your life, that you changed as time went by
I’ve been standing right beside you everyday
We have worked so hard, We have learned so much
How to talk, How to trust, You and me
Starting our life together, Tell me what you see
What a life we’ve built together, Loving our family
ANGELS
Do you remember, how you dreamed them
Living high up in the clouds
Drifting down to guard us children
All that heaven would allow
Glancing round now my spirits different
I see angels all anew
Exotic lines and curves so supple
Heavens changed a little too
Am I too old, for angels
Am I too old, to watch them fly
Am I too old, for angels
Will I see them if I try
Have I learned, to show my daughter
Who she is, can never be wrong
Can I share with her, these new angels
Can I share with her my song
Am I too old, for angels
Am I too old, to watch them fly
Am I too old, for angels
Will I see them if I try
Shall she gaze upon the woman
That her mother hides inside
Will it change her life to know this
Part of me I always hide
Am I too old, for angels
Am I too old, to watch them fly
Am I too old, for angels
Will I see them if I try
Am I too old, for angels
Breaking free oh I feel them fly
Flying now, with angels
Taking me for one more ride
Taking me for one more ride
WHAT I WISH FOR US
Through this mirror, I can see you,
In the room, right down the hall
Reflecting, the love I’m feeling
As the mirror, frames it all
You didn’t notice, as I came towards you
Headphones on, guitar in hand
The music growing, the rhythm beating
And I thank god, that you’re my man
This is what I wish for us
My prayer said in the morning
This is what I wish for us
As I'm opening my eyes
Let life be healthy,
Let us grow old with love and laughter
Let life be happy
To find the dreams we thought were lost
Let life be plenty
And share time with those who love us
All this and more, is what I wish for us
Your cheek, feels warm, beneath my fingers
A smile that starts, from deep inside
My heart, lets go into that moment
Where trust, and fear collide
This is what I wish for us
My prayer said in the daylight
This is what I wish for us
As I'm reaching for your hand
Let life be healthy,
Let us grow old with love and laughter
Let life be happy
To find the dreams we thought were lost
Let life be plenty
And share time with those who love us
All this and more, is what I wish for us
This is what I wish for us
My prayer said in the evening
This is what I wish for us
As I’m drifting off to sleep
Let life be healthy,
Let us grow old with love and laughter
Let life be happy
To find the dreams we thought were lost
Let life be plenty
And share time with those who love us
All this and more, is what I wish for us
All this and more, is what I
I wish for us
TONIGHT I WANNA SIT HERE ON MY OWN
Close the door, I need time to repair me
Home alone, I can just let go
I’m so tired, so drained and empty
Tonight I wanna sit here on my own
Tonight I’m on my own
The night has played out, the moonlight is fading
Laughter’s echoes ring soft in my ears
No smiles needed, got nothing to say now
Tonight I wanna sit here on my own
Tonight I wanna sit here on my own
Does it make a difference if I don't have the answers
Does it make a difference if I shut out the world
Does it make a difference if I bury it, deny it, hide it
Tonight I wanna sit here on my own
Tonight I wanna sit here on my own
Shoes discarded dirty clothes on the carpet
Please don’t ask, cause I’ve got nothing to give
It’s just the sounds of my own breathing
Tonight I wanna sit here on my own
Tonight I wanna sit here on my own
Does it make a difference if I don't have the answers
Does it make a difference if I shut out the world
Does it make a difference if I bury it, deny it, hide it
Tonight I wanna sit here on my own
Tonight I wanna sit here on my own
Tomorrow, I'll be ready to face the dawn
But, tonight I wanna sit here on my own
Woo woo woo woo, oh on my own
CAMPFIRE NIGHT
A campfire night, like ones long passed, like ones still yet unknown
It brought me back, as songs can do, to timeless nights long gone
So close your eyes, and drift away, a smile upon your face
That same guitar, that same soft glow, and voices interlaced
The hopes were all brand new those days, the aches much more skin deep
With firelight and melodies, a beautiful release
So give yourself into the night, into another dream
For firelight and melodies, are more than what they seem
I’ll listen to the tale you tell, and hope for still one more
Don’t end this night, by firelight, It’s what we’ve come here for
A friend to share this nighttime with, another one to see
That times we’ve grown, and times we’ve known, give way to memories
The hopes were all brand new those days, the aches much more skin deep
With firelight and melodies, a beautiful release
So give yourself into the night, into another dream
For firelight and melodies, are more than what they seem
It's more than what they seem
A campfire night, like ones long passed, like ones still yet to come
It brought me back, as songs can do, to timeless nights long gone
So close your eyes, and drift away, but pull today along
For firelight, and timeless nights, add life to one more song
The hopes were all brand new those days, the aches much more skin deep
With firelight and melodies, a beautiful release
So give yourself into the night, into another dream
For firelight and melodies, are more than what they seem
For firelight and melodies, are more than what they seem
CONTRADICTION
I am a contradiction, I’m arrogant and sure
Immodest and seductive, I’m humble and demure
I’m starry eyed and cheerful, a friend to all I see
Disheartened, disillusioned, awash in misery
I’m starry eyed and cheerful. Watch me now as I move on
Will you follow where I lead you
Will this sadness soon be gone
Will you follow where I lead you
Will this sadness soon be gone
I see you, will I let you know I noticed
I reach you, as the walls come tumbling down
What I feel, and what, I show you
Collided when, you said my name
I’ll boldly walk into your life, assertive through and through
And cautiously I’ll watch you, as you move across the room
I am a contradiction, dominant and strong
I’ll submit without resistance, If you’ll only play along
Out of ammo and courageous. Never flinching as I go
Too shocked and scared to move on
From that very first hello
Too shocked and scared to move on
From that very first hello
I see you, will I let you know I noticed
I reach you, as the walls come tumbling down
What I feel, and what, I show you
Collided when, you said my name
Do you really want to meet me
Take me home and lay me down
Will I scratch your back and bite you
Will I come without a sound
Will I scratch your back and bite you
Will I come without a sound
WHEN APRIL COMES NEXT YEAR
Every year, I believe
Maybe I should go away
Leave him alone, to grieve on his own
Let the healing begin without me near
But I stay
When April comes next year, I'll be ready
When April comes next year, I won't be walkin' out the door
He grows stronger every year, drowning less in waves of tears
We’re in this, together, When April comes next year
Yeah, We’re in this, together, When April comes next year
A spark inside, his heart had died
When she took her life that day
Emotions flood above him, all I can do is love him
And be a guiding hand along the way
So I stay
When April comes next year, I'll be ready
When April comes next year, I won't be walkin' out the door
He grows stronger every year, drowning less in waves of tears
We’re in this, together, When April comes next year
Yeah, We’re in this, together, When April comes next year
And I don't understand, why you act the way you do
Your temper starts, it catches me off-guard
It comes as a surprise, until I realize
It's April again
When April comes next year, I'll be ready
When April comes next year, You won't find me walkin' out the door
He grows stronger every year, drowning less in waves of tears
Oh we’re in this, together, When April comes next year
Yeah we’re in this, together, When April comes next year
I'M NOT HERE TO SAVE YOU
When the weight has got too heavy
And your tears are pouring down
You can call me anytime girl, I’ll be there
When you feel the highway calling
And that itch to run away
Put those car keys on the table, I’ll be there
You make me proud, watching you growing
You make me smile, watching you try
You make me cry, knowing your struggles
Wishing my love, could ease your pain
But I’m not here to save you, I’m not the one who can
I’m just a hand to hold, a loving smile
Cause I’m not here to save you, I’m not the one who can
My strength can only shield you for awhile
I can listen to your fears girl
I can listen to your dreams
But the one who makes it happen, it’s only you
You make me proud, watching you growing
You make me smile, watching you try
You make me cry, knowing your struggles
Wishing my love, could ease your pain
But I’m not here to save you, I’m not the one who can
I’m just a hand to hold, a loving smile
Cause I’m not here to save you, I’m not the one who can
My strength can only shield you for awhile
Cause I’m not here to save you
Cause I’m not here to save you
Cause I’m not here to save you
Cause I’m not here to save you
Cause I’m not here to save you, I’m not the one who can
I know you might feel like you're on your own
But you're not alone